Day seven

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Day seven marked a rare day - it was a day that I went out and had a little bit of a social life. First I went to a friends place for her 21st birthday party, then afterward, I went out to another friends place and we spent the evening playing Just Dance, on the Wii - later followed by a little bit of Guitar Hero before I left. Lots happened between these two events and left me with a lot to think about.

♥

Day six

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Now that my blog is finally back online, and I'm a little more inspired (and less busy) again, I thought I should perhaps start catching back up on my 365 project. All my 365 project photos so far, are up at my Flickr Photostream.

Day five

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Now that my blog is finally back online, and I'm a little more inspired (and less busy) again, I thought I should perhaps start catching back up on my 365 project. All my 365 project photos so far, are up at my Flickr Photostream.

Just dance, gonna be okay

What a great and fantastic day!

a) My blog is back online, and now, it is a Blogger blog - so I will from now on only need to purchase my domain name etc etc etc.
b) Earlier today I was at my friend Tash's place for her 21st - heaps of relaxed fun which was lovely, although the heat was a bit gross. Had to come home early though because I got a lift in with the parents and my brother had to work.
c) While I have just had to come home and use the nebuliser, it was all for a good cause - I spent the evening with my BFFs (also known and referred to as 'The Crew') and we played Just Dance on the Wii, followed by Guitar Hero. Surprisingly, I wasn't too bad at Just Dance - one of many highlights though was when the four of us girls did 'Wannabe' by Spice Girls, and then challenged the four boys to also do it and beat our scores. We thrashed them, of course - but it was good fun to watch.

Tonight though - has charged me up a little. My site is back up - obviously it is in need of some work, but that will happen over time. I am now really determined though to achieve my 200 goals. I don't know what it is - but I'm just... really charged.

Be expecting some art (of some sort) this coming week, as well as a stack of new photos, from yours truly and perhaps a few from some faves of mine :)

I've sort of taken a photo for today for 365 - but ... I couldn't get anything I was happy with. Nothing exciting for today... but we'll see... from now on... LIFE IS AWESOME!

I should probably leave you all be now! ♥

Lookbook

Why, oh why, did I allow myself to be introduced to lookbook? Goodness it is addictive. Probably good for me to browse it though for inspiration as I start moving towards making all my own clothes, and possibly making some items to sell and/or giveaway.

I already have a few sketches of items I'd like to attempt to make, and when I'm back working again, it is my hope and intention to have a look through ebay in search of some vintage patterns. Should be good!

Today will be a day of cleaning as I keep putting it off, and putting it off. Today: it gets done. Or started at the very least. The place looks like a bomb has gone off, so it may take more than one day to get back on top of it all.

I wish I were capable of staying tidy and organised - but apparently I'm not. I'll keep trying though! I won't give up! :)

Day four

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There are no words for how I was feeling when I took this yesterday. I had been so uptight and anxious, and I kept getting a blood nose and really bad headaches - it was just not nice.

Day late in uploading, but I was too busy trying to sort things out with shuffling my blog along. I decided that while wordpress has it's advantages, I don't want to buy hosting again, I'll just keep my domain name and use it over here at blogger. (It's all right - my url is still http://www.lolitajaynescarlet.com)

Fingers crossed that today is a better day ♥

Story of a girl

Lola | 22 | Australia

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Cherry blossoms. Strawberries. Vanilla scent. Lace and ribbons. Art. Reading. Writing. Music. Kittens. Drawing eyes. Birdsong in the morning. Masquerades.

All I need

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It bugs me when people ask kids that want to do something in the arts when they grow up if they want to look into math + sci. careers just to make sure that they aren't locking themselves into an unsuccessful life. b/c you know they wouldn't encourage the kid to check out the arts if the kid said they wanted to be a lawyer or doctor.

This is something that really bothers me too. Have any of my readers experienced this before? Had parents/teachers/friends etc. tell them things like this?

My mum certainly wasn't at all supportive until I found something that I thought I might be able to do and perhaps still make a decent living off - if I was lucky. So off I went to study Multimedia Design and it wasn't what I wanted to do, but it was a compromise - my mum had wanted me to be a school teacher and my dad wanted me to be an accountant, but, oh well. It was while I was doing this course, that I got my first boyfriend - worst mistake of my life! That being said, everything happens for a reason and I learned a lot from that dreadful experience. While I was studying though, he kept telling me that I wasn't good enough and I would never make anything of myself, that I was wasting my time and everyone else's. Eventually I believed him.

It took a while for me to rediscover my love for the various arts that I did love, and to realise that the idiot was wrong. Truthfully I'm still trying to find my feet again, but I will, because I can do this - that's what this blog has come to be about - my journey, rebuilding my art folio, practicing and experimenting, and also learning about who I am today. There are a few things that I'm certain of, that never changed - but creatively I've lost a lot of ground.

Don't ever try and tell someone their dreams aren't worth it, don't try to change their mind. Also, learn from my mistake (a mistake that so many have made), and don't let others convince you that you aren't good enough. You're only as good as you believe you are ♥

Day three

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My head is off in the clouds right now - I'll be back to Earth later! Oh, and I can't believe I'm up to day three already! Wow - I have to admit, that for me, this is dedication ♥ The words are lyrics from Within Temptation's song, Angels.

Hope you're all having a wonderful day lovelies! xx

Day two

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I hate it when I feel down and can't seem to pick myself up again. I think that I'm coming up again, when something else hits me and I feel sad all over again. Today is just one of those days.

"You're my star girl. ♥ me ★"

Once upon a time, I would go through several notebooks a year - I would sit there and just write random things onto the pages, or pass it along to a friend so that they could write me a letter, so I could look back on it at a later date. Sometimes we would even have conversations in there. One friend declared me incapable of proper human social interaction - I could only converse through the means of my notebooks.

I dug some of them out today and was reading them. Some of it was lovely - but some of it was equally horrid. I was such a bad friend to my best friend, I certainly never deserved their friendship. They opened up so much, and I never saw it until now, when it was too late and I'd hurt them.

One of my resolutions for the new year was to rebuild bridges that I have burned - I hope that it is possible.
Do you believe it is possible to fix things that you have ruined with flame?

xx

Day one

This year I will do the 365 project, so sadly for all of you... you may need to get used to seeing me!

Hope you're all well ♥

Featured Artist - Kylie Hajdu

Dragonflies by Kylie Hajdu (meikahidenori)

I'll come out and say it straight at the start: Kylie's style of art probably isn't one that I will post here regularly - but I think she is someone who is very talented and definitely worthy of a mention! Kylie and I actually went to high school together, although she was a year above me. It was her that initially inspired me to at least give art a go. I didn't believe that I was ever any good, but she took me under her wing and gave me a few tips and words of encouragement - she told me that if I kept practicing I would improve. Through that encouragement, I discovered that I really do enjoy art, and this is where I am now.

I should warn you, that some of her art is perhaps not safe for work, or some people may find some of it offensive - but I really enjoy looking through her Deviant Art Gallery, and she recently pointed out to me that she has a Web Comic. She also takes commissions, so you should check out her art work!